Society demands that we keep overcoming, overcoming, overcoming. But we don’t have to. Nowhere is it written that to be a really real human you have to brute force your way through your limits. Nowhere is it written that not doing so makes you less worthy. For most people, constantly refusing to acknowledge that you have limits is seen as a problem. We all have limits & we are supposed to acknowledge them, know where they are, work within them.
But when you have a disability, it’s like everyone expects you to push past your limits all the time. They want to be inspired, or they want to not have to deal with the fact that a disability means “there are things I cannot and will never be able to do”, even as they expect me to know there are things I can do that they will never be able to.
So we are pushed to keep ‘overcoming’, and if we can’t we are failures and lazy. But if we can, we aren’t really disabled. It’s a no win either way."
Just thought about that if there are about twice as much people with dermatillomania then there are with trich (according to the TLC), this means that - based on a population of 16.8 million people in Holland - there are between 672.201 and 1.344.402 people in The Netherlands who have dermatillomania. This tiny little country! This implies that there are at least 6000 - 12.000 people who experience dermatillomania in their lives, in just the city I live in. This in turn means that there are more than 300 people with it in the district/neighbourhood I live in.
I knew I was not alone, but this, this is unbelievable. This tiny little dot on the map.. so many people.. wow. It really is a disorder covered in secrecy.
You know whats fucking scary? The fact that I could literally change my life at any moment. I could stop talking to everyone that makes me unhappy. I could kiss whoever i want. I could shave my head or get on a plane or take my own life. Nothing is stopping me. The entire world is in my hands, and I have no idea what to do with it.
Yea you cán, but you don’t.
This is what kept me busy for a long time. What if it’s all already known somehow? All decisions you’ll make or not make; it’s already fixed, but we just think we are “free” but actually the choices we make aren’t really choices but we just can’t see every factor that plays a role in a choice. Maybe predicting the future will be a serious (scientific?) thing in about 50 years.. No, I don’t believe in a God, and I’m not saying that I think this is true, but it just keeps me thinking..
yes I am a believer. oh you meant god? my bad I thought u were talkin about aliens sir.